tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7607863253105913866.post7683471063819778389..comments2023-04-03T00:37:53.697+01:00Comments on Female, Twenty Something, Schizophrenic, GSOH: Seeing positives instead of negativesKaty Grayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13384403447580393959noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7607863253105913866.post-38260614048356594592012-03-20T17:00:56.793+00:002012-03-20T17:00:56.793+00:00Hi,
As I said, I do look at the positives more no...Hi,<br /><br />As I said, I do look at the positives more now, such as in children's reactions to me but I have had such bad experiences with doctors ignoring me and talking to my parents instead of me that I analyse doctors looks as derogatory. After all, if you've been unwell for over a year and a GP doesn't even refer you to the hospital for a few months, then it does tend to make me think that he thinks I'm lying.<br /><br />I am in a negative mood today but only because I came back from my job agency and they've closed my file. The closure was mutual consent but I'm a bit worried because my psychiatrist was only happy that I was OK because I was working and looking for paid work so I must have been OK. I'm worried in case he thinks I'm no longer OK and hauls me in for a re-assessment. I don't have a CPN anymore because my care co-ordinator was my psychologist who I ditched a couple of months ago and there's no longer any weekly support bar my support worker. I get on great with my support worker but she's not a CPN or psychologist so I've no one to talk to really anymore.<br /><br />But that's enough of the pity party!!! I shall get back to writing and try and be more positive!!! Thanks for the post about the e-book self publishing, if I go down that route, it will be really helpful!<br /><br />Katy xKaty Grayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13384403447580393959noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7607863253105913866.post-78099890574723316962012-03-20T10:51:49.879+00:002012-03-20T10:51:49.879+00:00Hi
The look on the doctor's face - it could ha...Hi<br />The look on the doctor's face - it could have been that he was just thinking schizophrenia is such an unfair diagnosis to burden someone with. Or it could have been that he was thinking of someone else he knows who has been given that label - or that he had forgotten to pack himself something for lunch and was thinking about that and hadn't even heard what you had said.<br />I do as you do all the time - the CBT counsellor I have been seeing calls it mind-reading. I am pretty intuitive, but I don't actually know what others are thinking - although in the past I would always interpret it to be something negative about me. You need to learn not to care what he might be thinking - he referred you for the treatment you need so it doesn't matter - or at least to consider other options than he is thinking you are a liar because of your diagnosis.<br />I only mention this because my idea of myself as a schizophrenic was really not helpful - I self-stigmatised for a long time, and just held the worst possible opinion of myself.<br />You need to build your self-esteem - tell yourself you are not a schizophrenic, you are a human being who has suffered emotional distress and you are no different than anyone else in the general population.<br />In Japan in the early 2000's the label 'schizophrenia' was changed to something else - I forget what, but something calmer sounding - and the number of diagnoses of the 'new' illness went up threefold in a really short space of time.<br />Schizophrenia is not a fact!Schizophrenia at the Schoolgatehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03839755338912448705noreply@blogger.com